我们走吧 Let's go.
生前还算人摸狗样的... A fine son of a bitch, you were...
可惜只能带进棺材里了... Took it all to the grave...
维塔利娜... Vitalina...
节哀顺变 My condolences.
你来得太晚了 You arrived too late.
你丈夫三天前下葬礼的 Your husband was buried three days ago.
葡萄牙什么都给不了你 Here in Portugal there is nothing for you.
他住的房子也不属于你,还是回家吧 His house is not yours. Go back home.
我回去的,我回去的... I'll go, I'll go...
满心迟疑,苦苦等待... unsure, waiting...
生活非他人所想般容易... life isn't as easy as they think...
饿着肚子,却不得不起床... get up, empty stomach...
生活不易... life isn't easy...
男人住在社区的小巷里 his place as a man, in the hood, in the alley,
男人在房子里辛苦工作 as a man, in the house, as a worker,
男人住在小巷里... his place in the alley...
忍耐之明镜啊,为我们祈祷... mirror of patience, pray for us...
拉起的墙,铺砖的地,没锁的门... towed the walls, tile the floor, door with no lock...
母亲苦寻其子 mother searching... her son...
枯坐着,等待着... 我会去的... sitting, waiting... I'll go...
我会去的, 我会去的... I'll go, I'll go...
床褥上燃烧着蜡烛 Candle on the mattress.
却已无爱留存 Nothing left of that love.
节哀顺变 My condolences.
屋顶快散架了 This roof is falling apart.
我会找人来修的 I'll get some guys to fix it.
七个金枪鱼罐头,卖给你五欧要吗? Seven cans of tuna, five euros?
抱歉,我深表遗憾 Excuse me. My condolences.
吃惊吗? You're surprised, aren't you?
你没想到我会来吧 You didn't expect my visit.
弥留之际都不要我陪在身边 You don't want me close to you even in your dying hours.
我们1982年12月14日在民事处登记结婚 We married in the civil registry on 14th December 1982,
1983年3月5日在教堂举办仪式 and in church on 5th March 1983.
显然你已经不爱了 There is nothing left of that love, of that clarity.
你是死是活我都信不过 I don't trust you in life nor in death.
你的遗体... Your body...
在墓地,在棺材里,我是看不见了 in the graveyard, in the coffin... I couldn't see it.
你被埋在地底下了吗? Are you buried under the ground?
我都忘记自家做的菜是什么味道了 I had forgotten the taste of home cooking.
像我妈妈烧的豆子 Just like my mom's beans.
有米,有南瓜... With rice, pumpkin...
还有木薯和地瓜 Cassava, sweet potato.
你也吃点 Have a little bit.
马丽娜胃口小 Marina doesn't eat much.
我们现在日子不好过 We are going through hard times.
露宿在火车站 We are sleeping rough at the train station.
我每天不得不去超市... Everyday I have to go forage for food...
检点东西充饥 down at the supermarket.
我在监狱里认识诺金的,他是个好厨子 I met Joaquim in prison,he was also a good cook.
我负责洗碗 I washed the dishes.
我们喝酒... We who drink...
我们偷东西,我们骗人 we who steal, we can be very deceitful.
但我们知道要帮助自己人 But we also know how to help our fellow men.
他从来没有把我忘了 He never forgot, always gave me a hand.
最后一次见他时,他坐在门边 Last time I saw him, he was sitting by the door,
胖了点 had put on weight,
满头发辫,脚蹬拖鞋,还是拽得不行 dreadlocks, sandals, full of himself.
他好几次叫我帮忙修理房子 So many times he asked me to help him fix this house.
他想要更多的房间,重新粉刷 He wanted more rooms, a new paint job,
把墙拖起来,把地铺了 fix the walls, tile the floor.
满脑子美梦 His head was full of dreams.
他说: 我要我老婆看到这房子漂漂亮亮的 He said: "My wife must see this house all pretty."
你不舒服吗? Are you feeling ill?
我很冷 I'm very cold.
我们走吧? Let's go?
马丽娜,快点 Marina, hurry up.
谢谢你,女士 Thank you, ma'am.
东尼! Ntoni!
东尼... Ntoni...
别藏着你的脸庞 Don't hide your face.
躲到我身后吧! Get behind me!
给他倒一杯! Get him a drink!
我把他清理干净 I bathed him.
刮了胡子 I shaved him.
换了衣服 I changed his clothes.
给她盛了点汤,他却喝不下多少 I gave him some soup, he didn't eat much.
地板上都是呕吐物 This floor was full of vomit.
嘿,大家伙儿有人见过诺金吗? "Hey guys, have you seen Joaquim?"
我们每天经过这里,敲门却没有人应 We passed by everyday, we knocked, nobody replied.
然后发现他满身呕吐物,在床上不省人事 We found him unconscious on the bed, covered in vomit.
我贴着门,好像听到他的哭声... I put my ear against the door, I could almost hear him weeping...
你病了吗,哥们? Are you feeling ill, boy?
我感觉不太好,起不来... I feel bad, can't get up...
那我们敲门你怎么不应呢? Why didn't you answer when I knocked?
我回答了,可你们听不见... I did answer, but you didn't hear me...
我给他倒了杯水,他吐了 I gave him a glass of water, he threw up.
我肚子里好像在燃烧... My belly is burning...
我想让他去医院,他不肯 I tried to get him to the hospital but he didn't want to go.
你需要手术啊,哥们 You need surgery, boy.
不要,还不如死呢... I don't want it, I'd rather die...
要我联系你在佛得角的老婆吗? You want me to call your wife in Cape Verde?
不,用不着 No, it's not worth it.
这张来葡萄牙的机票,我等了四十年 I've been waiting for my plane ticket to Portugal for 40 years.
我这辈子都不会回去的 I will stay for the rest of my life.
我会去的... I'll go...
枯坐着,等待你... sitting, waiting for you...
仰面躺着... laying, his face to the sky...
日夜不停苦干... work day and night...
却无人来... no one came...
你这房子造的真够烂的 This house of yours is a poorly done job.
窗户跟排水沟似的 Windows like gutters.
我的头总是磕到这破门 I keep hitting my head on these shitty doors.
根本比不上我们在佛得角造的房子 The house we built together in Cape Verde is incomparable.
十个房间,还有厨房,像样的卫生间,加上一个大水箱 Ten rooms, a kitchen, a good bathroom, big water tank.
旁边就是菲盖拉教堂 Close to the chapel of Figueira das Naus.
我把一头小牛卖了100康多(葡萄牙币) I sold a small calf for 100 contos.
买了一卡车铁,一卡车沙子,水泥还有水 I bought a truck load of iron, a truck of sand, cement and water.
每一块砖都是我亲手造的 I built all the blocks with my own hands.
你一块块地砌砖,拉墙,铺地 You laid down the bricks, towed the walls, tiled the floor.
经过的人都不敢相信 People passing by couldn't believe
我们四十五天就建成了那房子 we had done that work all by ourselves in 45 days.
你在佛得角待了四十五天,我们日夜不停地干活 You'd come to Cape Verde for 45 days. We worked day and night.
有时候连觉都不睡,我叫你躺一会儿 Sometimes we didn't even go to bed. "Lay down for a little bit."
你说,不行,我得干活 "No, I have to work."
水泥浆差不多了,早上能用来砌砖块 "The cement mix is ready to make the blocks in the morning."
有一天你不告而别跑去了葡萄牙 One day you ran off to Portugal, you didn't even say goodbye.
我回到家准备晚饭,炉子上煮着吃的,等你回来... I went back home, made dinner, waited with the food in the pan...
最后我全给扔了 then I threw it all away.
你跑遍街头巷尾,还跑到河对面的法国... While you ran the alleyways on the other side of the river... France...
像逃脱畜棚的羔羊一样追随街头浪女 chasing those street women, like a lamb that just escaped the barn.
我写信给你讨生活费,你从不回复,安静得很 When I wrote asking for money you didn't reply, you kept silent.
你把这事当做玩笑“早知道这么累人” You thought it was a joke: "If I had known it would be so tiring,"
“我才不会假期的时候来佛得角,还待了四十五天” "I wouldn't have come for a 45 day holiday to Cape Verde."
你走了以后,我拼命干活 After you left, I worked very hard.
完成了所有门窗 I took care of all the doors, all the windows.
完成了水箱 I built the water tank.
我又卖了一头牛,换来更多的门和窗 I sold another calf and bought more doors and windows.
干活时的我还怀着一个女孩,她连名字都没有 I was working pregnant with a little girl that didn't even have a name.
每一天我都头顶五十公斤的水泥袋 I carried 50 kg cement bags, on my head, every day.
一只脚肿得变了形 One of my feet swelled bigger than the other.
你从来没机会看见 You never saw it.
房子造好了,粉刷好了,你却从没进去过 You never entered our house after it was finished, all painted.
你老说你回来的,你回来的... You kept saying you would come, you would come...
但你没来过就死了 And you died, and you never came.
这是葬礼上那个女人吗? Is this the same woman who was at the funeral?
- 不,是另一个. - 你看见这女的身材了吗? - No, it's another one. - Have you seen this girl's figure?
- 是她吗? - 不是,是另一个 - Is this her? - No, it's another one.
出去! Get out!
回家去! Go home!
今天没有弥撒! No mass today!
有也没人来! No one comes anymore!
念珠祈祷都没有... Not even to pray the Rosary...
你不记得我了吗,神父? Don't you remember me, Father?
七天前你埋葬了我的丈夫 You buried my husband seven days ago.
他离开时的灵魂是纯净的 He left with a clean soul.
我认真地给他布了道 I sang him a nice sermon.
你对我的仪式满意吗? Did you enjoy my sacrament?
我来晚了 I was late.
这里没有值得你留恋的了 Nothing left for you here.
门上没有锁 The door has no lock.
我听见一个男人整夜哭嚎 I hear a man crying all night.
没有比在这种地方当牧师更悲哀的事了 There is nothing sadder than a priest in this place.
水泥要花钱 Cement is expensive.
转头要花钱 Bricks are expensive.
粉刷要花钱 Paint is expensive.
没有人愿意帮助我们 Nobody helps us.
是我,维塔利娜·瓦雷拉 It's me, Vitalina Varela.
那一晚是我把你从地上扶起来的 I lifted you from the ground, that evening.
我那时候还小,住在朝伯姆.你负责的第一个教区 I was young, down in Chão Bom, your first parish.
我牵着驴去取一捆干草 I went to fetch a bale of hay with my donkey.
突然,一辆皮卡撞上了另一辆车 Suddenly, a Hiace pickup van crashed into another car.
三十多个人遇害,有人掉了脑袋 More than thirty people, severed heads,
到处是流出来的肠子,被截断的四肢 guts falling out, legs, arms, feet, hands.
你从教堂里跌跌撞撞跑了出来 You stumbled out of the church.
你摔进了血泊中 You ran and fell in a pool of blood.
你大喊“一路走好,上帝必在你前面行” You yelled: "Have a safe journey! The Lord travels one step ahead!"
一路走好,上帝必在... A safe journey. The Lord travels...
那些人只不过想要你为他们祈祷 Those folk just wanted your blessing.
我不能为其他人施行洗礼 I can't baptise anyone else.
我没办法做弥撒了 I can't say mass no more.
你拒绝了他们受洗的要求,将她们送到乔维诺神父那里 You denied them their baptism. You sent them to Father Juvino.
你执意让他们上路去塔拉法尔 You put them on the road to Tarrafal.
他们从未到达目的地 And they never got there.
现在这成了他们的归宿.我每天坐在空荡的椅子中 Now this is their home. Every day I cry next to them,
在他们一旁哭泣 sitting on these empty chairs.
这里就是他们的归宿 This is my people's home.
可钱是我出的 But I pay.
所有的钱都是 I pay all of them.
水费,电费,煤气费 Water bills, electricity bills, gas bottles,
医药费 medicine,
棺材 coffins.
你有为我丈夫的葬礼出钱吗? Did you pay for my husband's funeral?
我出了所有公车的费用 I paid all the bus fines.
火车. 警局 Train fines. Police.
你买花圈了吗? Did you buy the flowers?
我帮他支付了小市场的账单 I settled his mini-market bills.
你不想回家吗? Don't you want to go back home?
不想 No.
你感觉好受点了吗? Are you feeling better?
我觉得好一点了 Feeling a bit better, I am.
我们一同哀悼 We share the mourning.
你失去了丈夫 You lost your husband,
而我在此黑暗中失去了信仰 I lost my faith in this darkness.
你害怕吗? Are you afraid?
即使害怕也能去天堂 Fear can also get you to Heaven.
他没有死,不过是睡去了 He's not dead. He's only sleeping.
直到时间尽头 Until the end of times.
直到你们重聚 Until you join him.
为什么呢? What for?
我希望你为他做一次弥撒 I want you to pray a Mass for him.
也为了我 And for me.
你怎么不修补屋顶? Couldn't you have fixed this roof?
你知道我多么害怕 You know how scared I am.
你在佛得角的时候是个勤快的工人 You were quite a worker in Cape Verde.
你人也挺好的 You were a fine boy.
勇气十足 Full of courage.
同我一样 Just like me.
而现在我看着经过这房子的人们 I see all these men passing by this house.
你的好伙伴们,低迷之人,还有酒鬼 Your comrades. Sad men, drunkards.
你变得和他们一样懒惰,老实认命 You turned lazy like the rest, hands tied to your chest.
你宁愿死亡寻求解脱 You turned your face to death.
我们本可留在佛得角 We could have stayed in Cape Verde.
即使拥有的不多,可完全属于我们 We didn't have much, but it was ours.
我们一起打理那块土地 We worked the land together.
而这里只有痛苦 Here, there is only bitterness.
在这我们什么都不是 Here, we are nobody.
死亡也无法抵消你犯下的罪恶 Your death cannot erase all the evil you have done.
你再也无法逃避了 You can't run away anymore.
我是来忏悔的 I come to confess.
结婚戒指... The wedding ring...
我的小儿子... my youngest son...
葬礼上没见到她,根本没有人出席... didn't see her at the funeral, no one came...
他仰面躺着... he lays, his face to the sky...
低头看看这些灵魂,挥手告别自己的凡人之躯 Lower your eyes upon these souls, waving goodbye to their mortal bodies.
低头看看这幢房子 Lower your eyes upon this house.
迎接您忠实的仆人,阿尔弗雷德·露辛达和他们的儿子们 Welcome your servants Alfredo, Lucinda and their sons,
让他们在您的神殿中,在您的庇护之下 in your celestial palace, under your guard.
释然安息吧 Relieved.
我们却是天上的国民 Our country is in Heaven.
这个时间来访有点晚了吧,不过我也想念我的搭档了 It's late to pay visit, but I'm missing my partner.
这种夜晚需要有个伴 This is a night to spend together.
我们以前一起在这里吃培根和猪排 This is where we used to eat our streaky bacon, our pork chops.
还一起打牌 Where we used to play cards.
也是在这给你回信 This is where we used to write those letters to you.
我们断过腿,断过胳膊 We broke our legs and arms.
在葡萄牙的大冷天干活 We used to work in this Portuguese cold.
冻得没法儿脱裤子撒尿 So cold we couldn't unzip our pants to take a piss.
我们有时在巷子里一起遛弯 One day we hung out by the alley,
有时一起卖毒品,好还上肉贩帐 the other day we were selling drugs to pay the butcher.
才买得起这炉子 Stove,
橱柜 closet,
冰箱 freezer,
桌子,椅子 table, chairs,
微波炉 microwave,
床褥,床,床单 mattress, bed, sheets,
锅碗瓢盆 pots, plates, spoons, cups,
住房子,享庭院,上街 house, backyard, street,
买电视,挂钟,小收音机 television, wall clock, small radio,
床尾凳,交水费,电费 bed stool, water, light,
有一扇像样的们 a very good door.
这是我回来的账单 This is the tab of my return.
我不会为无耻之徒流一滴泪 I won't cry for no wretched man.
上帝的羔羊 Lamb of God,
免除世罪者 Who takes away the sins of the world,
怜悯我们吧... Have mercy upon us...
上帝的羔羊,请怜悯我们的兄弟 Lamb of God, have mercy on our brother.
在旅程中指引他 Guide him through his journey,
直至他最后一口气 his last breath.
神圣的主啊 Holy Lord,
欢迎您忠实的仆人... welcome your servant...
诺金·瓦雷拉 Joaquim de Brito Varela.
一名瓦匠 Bricklayer,
电工 electrician.
一路走好,诺金 Have a safe journey, Joaquim.
我们的主在他饱经苦难之后 Our Lord snatched him from this world,
将他从这世界上带走 after all of his hardships,
从而让他不被恶意掌控 so that his feelings would not be stolen by malice,
不被诡诈奴役 and cunning would not enthral his soul.
在上帝眼中... It's pleasing...
其忠实仆人的离世 in the eyes of the Lord,
是愉悦的 the death of his servants.
他从此释然,从世俗重负中安息 Relieved, he rests from his work.
他的苦痛记忆 The memory of his misery,
移民生活的往事... of his immigrant life...
是毒药! It's poison!
自此不再有死亡 There will be no more death.
无人哀悼 Nor mourning.
不再痛苦 Nor pain.
不再流泪 Nor tears.
保佑哭泣之人吧 Blessed be the one who cries.
他终将安息 For he will be relieved.
保佑... Blessed be the one...
我们这里举办了一场婚礼... We had a wedding here...
就在上周日... last Sunday...
- 你为什么帮他们和我对着干. - 我不像他们一样是个男人吗? - Why are you against me and on their side? - Am I not a man like them?
- 该隐之子. - 和他们一样是个工人? - Son of Cain! - A worker like the others?
- 男人之间互相维护. - 和其他人一样移民 - Men favour men! - Immigrant like the others.
我亲手合上了他满是痛苦的双眼 I closed his bitter eyes.
他看到一女人躺在棺材里时,无法想象她的苦难 When you see a woman's face in the coffin, you can't imagine her suffering.
你会颂天主经吗? Are you well enough to say the Our Father prayer?
会的话就你来吧,我不行了 Go ahead, because I can't.
他是自杀的吗? Did he kill himself?
我去牢里探访的是他 It was your Joaquim that I visited in jail.
医院里向我忏悔的也是他 It was his confession I heard at the hospital.
你会说葡萄牙语吗? Do you speak Portuguese?
不会 No.
那你要是和他对话,就必须去学 You must learn it if you want to speak to him.
你对玛丽娜释怀了吗? Have you made peace with Marina?
我向来女人缘就不好 I have no luck with women.
和我父亲一样 Just like my dad.
他扔下我母亲和三个儿子就跑去了佛得角 He left my mother with three sons and ran away to Cape Verde.
因为他希望自己能葬在家乡 He said he wanted to be buried back home.
但每次他给我母亲打电话 But every time he called my mom,
你总能听出爱意 we felt there was love.
我母亲以前老是说 My mom used to say:
他是我一生挚爱 "He is the love of my life."
而我父亲也说: 她永远是我心上人 And my dad would say: "She's my sweetheart."
他最终出于悔恨,还是回来了葡萄牙 Remorse brought him back to Portugal.
和你丈夫一样,死在阿马多拉医院 He died at the hospital of Amadora, like your husband.
他之前一个人住在这 He lived here alone.
在我之前,他只有过一个来自塔拉法尔的姑娘 Before me, there was only this girl from Tarrafal.
她的名字叫维塔利娜 Her name was Vitalina.
也叫维塔利娜 Another Vitalina.
她卷走他所有的积蓄,留下他身无分文 She took all his savings, left him flat broke.
我告诉他: 我知道你有个心上人 I told him: "I already know your sweetheart."
什么心上人? 我的心上人就是你呀! "My sweetheart? You're my sweetheart!"
蠢货,她用你的钱在塔拉法尔造了座宫殿呢 "Silly man, she stole all your money and built a palace in Tarrafal."
你哭的样子真蠢 "You looked foolish, crying."
他说: 闭嘴,你胡说 He said: "Shut up, it's not true!"
我没胡说,你就是条骗人的狗! "Yes, it is! You're a dog, a liar!
我在你行李箱里找到个相册 "I found a photo album in your suitcase,
里面有十或十二张那女娘 "with ten or twelve photos of that girl,
躺在那张床上伸懒腰的照片 "laying on that bed, her arms stretched open.
你在这房子的每个角落都给她照过相 "You took pictures of her all over this house.
她在厕所洗手时 "In the bathroom washing her hands.
在厨房洗碗时 "In the kitchen washing the dishes.
在客厅看光盘时 "Playing CDs and DVDs in the living room.
她跪在院子里月桂树旁傻笑 "In the backyard, giggling, kneeling by the laurel tree.
身上穿着你的花边衬衫 "Wearing your lace shirt,
你的工地马甲还晾在绳子上 "with that work vest drying on the rope.
她在客厅把一只脚架在椅子上 "You took her photo in the living room, her foot up on a chair,
身穿一条紧身蓝裙,双腿大开 "in a tight little blue dress, her legs wide open,
白色内裤都露了出来 "I could see her white panties."
我觉得女人要找丑的,因为那些长得好看的... I need me to find an ugly woman, 'cause the pretty ones...
要是她难看,你把灯关了,她就不难看了 If she's ugly, one turns off the lights and she becomes pretty.
要是她漂亮,你关了灯她只会更漂亮 If she's pretty, one turns off the lights and she becomes even prettier.
有时候,爱也不能解决问题 Sometimes, even if there's love, things don't work out.
别骗你自己了 Don't fool yourself.
要是真爱,一切都会迎刃而解 If there's love, things must work out.
你叫什么名字? What's your name?
东尼 Ntoni.
东尼,爱太重要了 Ntoni, love is so important.
未来的英国女王... "The future queen...
九岁不到时... "was not yet...
就第一次... "nine years old...
遇到了... "when she met...
将来会... "for the first time...
成为... "the one that...
自己丈夫... "would become...
的男人. "her husband.
1939年7月... "In July 1939...
全球笼罩在... "the world trembled in fear...
希特勒和德国军队的阴影之下 "of Hitler and the Germans,
可伊丽莎白的内心... "but the heart and thoughts...
却被危险程度... "of Elizabeth were occupied...
远不及此... "with things...
的事情所占据 "far less dangerous."
神父脑袋糊涂了 Our Father is out of control.
竟然告诉我逝者的灵魂只听得懂葡萄牙语 He says that spirits only speak Portuguese.
我要想和你对话就必须得学 And that I have to learn it to speak to you.
难得很,我又笨 It's difficult. I am dumb.
要是我学了,你会回应我吗? If I learn, will you respond?
你会不会坦白那些你在佛得角从未说出口的事? Will you finally say all those things you didn't say in Cape Verde?
你离开的那天,我能察觉你满心愤恨 The day you ran away I felt you were full of hate inside.
你把我寄来的信都扔了吗? Did you throw away all the letters I sent you?
他们都是用葡萄牙语写的 They were all written in Portuguese.
要是我会葡萄牙语 If I speak Portuguese,
你愿意和我说话吗? will you speak with me?
当基督... When Christ felt...
感到自己... his hour had finally...
大限将至... come...
肃穆,沉着... grave, calm...
又安详... and serene...
祂靠近找寻祂的那些人 he approached those who sought him.
所有人都低下了头 All of them, eyes on the ground.
那个... The one...
要送祂上路的人... who had to deliver him...
走近... came closer...
抱住了祂... took him in his arms...
悄声说: and whispered:
愿上天拯救祢 主啊 "May God save you, Master."
并按照指示... And kissed his face...
亲吻了祂的脸 as he had been told to do.
此路艰辛 The path was hard.
来也好去也罢 Both ways,
堕落亦是如此 and down under,
黑暗笼罩大地 darkness covered the Earth.
在最高山巅之上 Beyond the highest hill,
终于抵达 arriving at last,
霎时 suddenly,
祂的脸上露出笑容 his face lit up
伴随着一束柔和 with a soft,
巨大的光芒 but immense light.
一切变得清晰起来 Everything became clear.
山谷和峭壁 The valley and the scarp.
半边天空... And half of the sky...
显露出来... appeared...
如同纯洁月光 as pure moonlight.
容光焕发的那侧脸庞... That radiant face...
是犹大... was the one that Judas...
从未触及过得 never touched.
而被他亲吻的那侧 But the other face, the one he kissed,
仍旧黯淡无光 remained dark,
像是在掩盖其罪恶 as if hiding his crime.
没有一丝光亮 Shone no light.
暗夜 It was a dark night,
将世界一分为二 breaking the world in two.
那一半 And that half was the one that remained
长久笼罩于阴暗之下 shrouded in shadows.
而我们生于那些阴暗 We were born from those shadows.
维塔利娜... Vitalina...
马丽娜昨天去世了 Marina died yesterday.
一支蜡烛掉在了她床褥上 A candle fell on her mattress.
片名:《维塔利娜·瓦雷拉》